Trying to spread the word through visuals

So yes I'm trying to do a video for a couple of songs for the mixtape (which is done by the way, Thanks be unto God). However, I've faced one challenge after another, either not having enough to shell out for the vid or now having access to a cam-corder to do it low-budget, guerilla style and my video-guy not being available.

That's the challenge of being independent in the truest sense. Sure the creativity and freedom is excellent but being able to do what you want to do when you want to? Right now sometimes sucks. However, I'm learning to be patient knowing that sometimes things have to happen on God's Time - when they're supposed to happen and all things will work together for good for me since I love Him.,

It can get frustrating attimes though. Having to wait on others' schedules whenever you're ready to go, ppl not returning your calls like this guy I know who owned a recording studio at home where I recorded a couple of songs off the tape, needless to say it sucked having to feel like you were chasing someone down to give them money! Imagine that. This situation happened twice with two different guys for that matter, almost made me assume Houston studio engineers had issues...lol. But through it all God made a way for me. I've been doing most of my recording now at my potna's spot and its been wonderful to say the least. Dude has a good heart and we work very well together and outside the music are friends. So in hindsight I'm glad that happened.

Have you ever been in a situation where it seemed you wanted to get an idea out or a vision and it seemed like everything was fighting against it? How do you keep your self motivated?

Btw I ought to use this blog for my self-promotion a bit more don't you think? Question is though aside from the few that post on here who else is watching right? Plus this blog is my private outlet...let me know your thoughts ladies, gentlemen.